naik lupa lak the groove nak writes..
saya dah berjaya menambah seorang lagi puteri dalam koleksi anak-anak saya.. :)
syabas inspektor shaab.. heheee, malangnya aku bukan polis..
as the entry title... 2 chick flowers, a precious stone and a celebrity obsession..
tu kira-kiranya conclusion nama anak-anak sayalah..
yg sulung kan namanya YASSMINE.. kan ke nama bunga jasmin
yg kedua kan ke namanya SORAYA DEAN, kan ke nama celebrity yg hubby obsess, err to her name aje..
yg ketiga kan namanya NADRAH JADE, kan ke precious stone.. walau kalau dapat namakan anak diamond lagi gila precious, hahahahaaa
and the newest addition..
ZAHRA ROSE, another flower, just like her oldest sister, just like me.. rose wangi, sedap, cantik mata memandang, pautan hati ramai orang.. zahra maksudnya YG BERSERI..
the last 6 months spent eventfully.. during my eight month of pregnancy, there was a news bout my husband's colleague punya wife death due to complication masa delivery.. anak ke-4, sama mcm saya.. it scares me out of my wit,
zahra rose delivered by c-section..
because she was huge..
all 4.5kg of her..
don't ask me how i manage to grew her that big in my stomach..
the only thing i remember,
zahra jeling manja kat kita masa nurse tunjukkan dia kat kita..
while doctors sebok stitching me back..
i longed to hug her but she was taken away.. kerna perlu monitor kerna dia too big...
and there i was at around 3 am..
nak terlelap (sebab local bius aje kat tulang blakang, so takdelah pengsan)
but takut sebab ingat kalau lelap nanti termati lak,
tak mampu lagi nak menghadap SI PENCIPTA..
sebab amal tak cukup..
and asyik ingat kat anak2..
and when finally they stiched me back, i was monitored kat bilik yg sejuk,
sampai ketaq2 tak boleh belah..
sambil dengaq 2 nurse dok ngumpating rakan sekerja...
i wished at least i knew which person they are ngumpating..
so it made it all worth while..
ear-full of senseless ngomel kat telinga i..
sambil i main laga gigi..
n dorang buat tak kisah..
n i still rasa malaikat maut so near to me...
the nod from THE DIVINE
and when finally bila nurse dari wad datang nak ngambik i bawak ke wad..
dia dok tekan2 perut i,
sambil kata dia ni bleeding nih..
dok panggil doktor..
and i was jab don't know where..
and there was slight disagreement bout who should report what on the report..
while i was again..
pondering this might be the time..
my final goodbye..
my final last breath on earth..
here i am,
typing this experience..
i didnt say a simple thank you to any of those there..
walaupun it sounded like one wrecking experience..
i still have these last 20 days breathing more air..
finally looking at zahra and dapat cium peluk dia..
priceless i must say..
spending more time with my family..
i hope many more years to come...
to see my daughters akad..
to see their first boyfriends,
to be there when their hearts broken, just to be a mom..
to see they pursue dreams,
to see they be tough every time curve ball been given,
dalam 20 hari lepas zahra lahir,
i get to see yassmine dapat number 4 sekolah rendah dan agama,
got gold medal for lompat jauh and 4x200 rally.
bronze for lompat tinggi..
min and soraya went for rombongan to aquaria and had a blast..
soraya got number 1 for sekolah agama and rendah..
and bronze for sukaneka..
and see nadrah being a caring sister..
yet jealous gila..
and been bullying her dad..
but rudin being rudin,
he let her kid do that..
just that she knows that he loves her much..
it is just priceless..
thanx for all the experience..
and now i am a proud owner of a scar..
on my belly..
rasa macam macho seh..